THE DIAMOND OF THE WOMAN I AM TODAY

Hey ya! So you're here reading my blog post. You might be bored or something. But thanks, anyway! :)

As my first post, I would like to introduce myself, and a little glance over my life, and how did I get to this blogging thingy. I am a 24 year-old woman, mother of two, and a single mother. Yes, single, not by my choice, but I guess it's fate. Let me take you to the dark days of my life so that you can also appreciate how happy I am to be in the light right now. 

When I was becoming a lady, I knew in my heart that I am different in a way I really can't figure out yet. Life was so easy back then. I already had faith in God, confidence in myself, parents that provide everything I will need, sisters I share the same interests with, some friends I always trust. And then one day I fell in love with this guy so hard. So hard that even if God was showing me signs that he's not the one, I would still be stubborn and insist what I wanted. So hard that I was willing to do everything to make him stay, even if it meant dragging myself down to the aisle, and settling to a life I never did wish for. And boom! I found myself married to this guy, doing the laundry, cleaning the house, throwing the trash bag, feeding the dogs with the leftovers, my life totally changed. I didn't feel confident about myself anymore, no parents and sisters to watch TV with, I cut connections with my real friends, the only thing that's left was my faith in God.

Things got even worst. People change, feelings fade. He was not the same guy anymore. After my sacrifices and dedication to be a perfect wife, in return, he used to neglect my existence and worth. I was a battered wife. I don't want to go to details to still protect the identity of my ex-husband. But I felt that it was a long long long night, endless pain, rivers of tears. The only thing that kept me from wanting to wake up the next morning was my faith in God. Those were the years that really crushed me from the bones to the spirit, devastated my soul, and ruined my everything. I still felt that God was watching, that He knew every single thing that's going on. Every night, my faith in God just got deeper and deeper. It's true that when you have nothing, you have everything. God is everything to me.

God knows how far He will take you. And when He put an end to it, He will make sure to provide you the strength and grace that you will be needing along the process. When He removes someone from our lives, it will be a total removal. God protected me and saved me. For some reason I can't explain, when my ex-husband left me, I felt the peace in my heart. That feeling you get when the storm have passed and you see the sunlight? That's exactly how I felt. It was really God taking over my life.

And right now, I am very happy to be with my two handsome kids, to live again with my parents, to enjoy bonding with my sisters and finally to stay connected again with my true friends. It feels so good to be back in love with myself, to bring back the smile in my face, to laugh again, to be confident about myself again, to bring back the groove back in me. Kelly Clarkson was right, "In the end, the day you left was just my beginning." I lost myself once and for a long time, and I am not going to lose it again, ever. What I've been through, I will use it as a roadmap to where I am going, and for where I will never ever go again. The ashes of the lady I used to be turned me into the diamond of the woman I am today.

And now, this is my blogsite officially: thekickasswoman.blogspot.com Expect that I will be posting fashion thingy such as outfit-of-the-day, photoshoot adventures, favorite items and more. And also other things that I love like music, cooking, friendship, and everything else about motherhood. And oh! Jim Sturgess of course! Haha! Feel free to leave a comment each time. Til next time! :)

With so much love,

Angelique

I am posting my favorite shots below. God bless everyone! :)

Photographer : Randy Benigno
HMUA/Stylist : Jerose Mascarinas

Photographer : Randy Benigno
HMUA / Stylist : Jerose Mascarinas

Photographer : Randy Benigno
HMUA / Stylist : Jerose Mascarinas

Photographer : Marck Brendo Alfaro
Stylist : Marse Farinas